A silent nightmare

" I'm tired of living unable to love anyone - not one. And, worst of all, I can't even love myself. Why is that? Why can't I love myself? It's because I can't love anyone else. A person learns to love himself through the simple acts of loving and being loved by someone else. Do you understand what I am saying? A person who is incapable of loving another cannot properly love himself." - Haruki Murakami

Having a greater happiness after finding smaller ones; that's my goal in life - JJ

As time passes and the more you get to know me, you would probably just be disappointed.

If you're absent during my struggle, don't expect to be present during my success. I can be meant when I want to, even when that person is You !

Being at your peak or being at your down point of time, you are entirely yourselves. Happy - sad - fun - down moments, the only one will be there all the time with you, is none rather than you - yourself alone. Isn't it suck to have a life like that?

From different perspective even from myself, I do and do not agree with this. Yes, there are moments when I want to be exclusive mine - let me be in my own little world, weird though but yet that's just me. I'm tired of thingS  T___T

It's impossible to not hurt anyone. But that's what it means to keep on living. Nice saying but how hurt have I been hurting others? Time passes, the wound is healed, perhaps... 說好的幸福呢, 是 在那里了...

Sé mejor persona por ti, no por ellos !


" Je n'aime que toi et seulement toi - I love you one and only..
Même si je meurs avant toi, j'emporterai ton amour avec moi - Even if I die before you, I’ll take your love with me.. 
Je promets de t'aimer pour toujours - I promise to love you forever.   " 


Without any means available, knowing they are no longer here, little by little, their bodies are made to remember that
The cells in our body, one by one absorbs the bitter-sweet. And second by second, shorten our life.
Who we are is a gift from God. What we become is a gift to God.


There are no words to describe the debilitating pain and silence which are munching my brain and my heart .

Is Heaven far from here ... ?

Happiness

yes, I'm very hyper right now :)

This year might mark another important & memorable to both my family and me.

Hope that everything would happen nicely !!

I feel happy for her, somehow I can feel the happiness through her voice. It looks like she enjoys her life right now, and yes I'm happy too <3
So many big decisions are being decided this first 2 months, and yet I'm so looking forward to the year-end.

Is it gonna be another happy year for me, for her & for us?

I wanna see new things, new people, new life. Thus it could explain the reason why I support her decision. Yes, since we have nothing to hold back there, why not !!!  It could be even a better one, perhaps.

Everybody thoughts I'm some kind of workaholic, materialistic - but as compared to all wonderful people around me, I do know that I'm nothing, sometimes I even feel that I'm useless. Yet I believe God creates us  - each human being- for a purpose. Thus, I am living my life to fulfill that purpose, perhaps, by enlightening others' life.

I know at the very next moment, I would be back to my own-self, being consumed by thoughts, by work and by people. But yes, in this very silent night, I'm happy and I know it :)

God bless you!