No matter how beautiful or pitiful your past was, You could not do anything about it anymore. So move on & live a new life.
Since you have decided to leave my side & move on with your life, I shall respect your decision & support you, no matter how hard it could struck me .
Feeling like I have 2 lives in my life. Whenever I come back there & then come back here again, I always feel there is an extremely difference, both feel like coming home for me. But if I have to choose one, I think I would want to stay here, even though I still have my family over there, but yeah, this is my choice and I won't regret !
" Je n'aime que toi et seulement toi - I love you one and only..
Même si je meurs avant toi, j'emporterai ton amour avec moi - Even if I die before you, I’ll take your love with me..
Je promets de t'aimer pour toujours - I promise to love you forever. "
Wish to have one person who could understand what I am feeling right now, what I have been through these time, what I have experienced so far.
It would be a lie if I say I don't need a person who stands by me, supports me & gives me strength morally & physically. Feeling so weak & down at this moment, But yet I have to move on in life. Sometimes at a certain point in time, I do seriously need a person to stand by me, but again, feeling disappointed realizing the fact that there is no one could be here with me.
Day by day, strangers pass by, friends pass by, relatives pass by . yet no one stops by & wait for me. Here the life's pace is not that fast as compared to others, I still have time to do some stuffs but yah the loneliness is still there, existing lively with me - another lively-yet-deadly creature in this Life.
Do feel like running away from all these things, yet every time I think about it, that person's question once again echoes in my mind " Would you forever run away from matters like this ? " Sometimes wishing that I suddenly lost some particular memory in my mind, so that I could turn over a new leaf. Like drama, like .... < --- yah I know it's lame.
It's not that I miss you, yes I repeat again one more time, I don't miss you anymore & it's true. whatever I write here is because of some certain things happened and it made me tired.
" Je n'aime que toi et seulement toi - I love you one and only..
Même si je meurs avant toi, j'emporterai ton amour avec moi - Even if I die before you, I’ll take your love with me..
Je promets de t'aimer pour toujours - I promise to love you forever. "
" Je n'aime que toi et seulement toi - I love you one and only..
Même si je meurs avant toi, j'emporterai ton amour avec moi - Even if I die before you, I’ll take your love with me..
Je promets de t'aimer pour toujours - I promise to love you forever. "
" Je n'aime que toi et seulement toi - I love you one and only..
Même si je meurs avant toi, j'emporterai ton amour avec moi - Even if I die before you, I’ll take your love with me..
Je promets de t'aimer pour toujours - I promise to love you forever. "
I love reading these lines SO MUCH <3
big big admiration for the one who wrote it ( of course it is not me )
Thursday, 20 October 2011
Saturday, 15 October 2011
my mind reflection !
had a great time back there , got to know a new friend, went to some cool places & experienced again the flood of uncontrolled past memory :|
whenever I was back there, don't know why but there was a kind of feeling that make me feel stressed.
Was it because of what was happening over there, about family, about life or simply because of me ?
Random thoughts flashed in my mind here & there, I thought I already forgot all of them but suddenly all that memory was once again played back. something that even my logical mind could also not control it, so in the end I let it be, let it play & let it run wildly in my mind, again and once again
memory once again was being flashed but it was not because of any particular person, wasn't it ?
last hour when i was there, i managed to make a last phone call to someone, out of my surprise that person picked up the phone . and then we talked for like more than half an hour, we both understand what the other wanted to say or would like to hear, but neither one of us said it out first, or we refused the last opportunity which was given to us.
let it be ! Like what i said , "what will be will be "
" life is not a stage so don't need to wear your mask and perform to anyone. be yourself and do whatever you want. etc etc " I still remember i told u all these things , actually did not know the reason why i told u so haizz
let just be friend for now, I don't want to think too much , for such a long time, I don't really put my trust in all kind of relationship ( of course there are some exceptions ). It's not that I'm not a committed type of person, it's because I haven't found the right person so that I could share everything with .
One of my friend ever told me the last time when i met her there, she said no matter how successful in life I could be, behind all that glory, I would still need a family so that I could know where to come back, where to spend my life with & thus, it would make my life complete.
I felt so touched when i heard what she told me, yes she got the point. But in order to make it happen, it requires tones of effort & overflowing love to maintain that love relationship. Am I ready to commit myself & be serious in a relationship ? The answer is I still Don't Know
You have your life over there, which I can't imagine how tough it could be and I also have my life over here, which you again also don't know what I might be through .
Each of us has our own things that we Have to do in life, everyday seems like a mundane routine, where we might repeat something unconsciously, yet we have to do it anyway . Isn't it boring ?
For you, you and you ( etc) I wish you all the best and do whatever you feel right in your life, because after all that is your life, which I could only be a viewer, a stranger, a supporter in a sense, a friend ( perhaps) and nothing else. vice versa, it goes the same thing for you.
Be my stranger, be my friend, be my love, be my family or be my nothing. It's up to you and to me to work it out !
whenever I was back there, don't know why but there was a kind of feeling that make me feel stressed.
Was it because of what was happening over there, about family, about life or simply because of me ?
Random thoughts flashed in my mind here & there, I thought I already forgot all of them but suddenly all that memory was once again played back. something that even my logical mind could also not control it, so in the end I let it be, let it play & let it run wildly in my mind, again and once again
memory once again was being flashed but it was not because of any particular person, wasn't it ?
last hour when i was there, i managed to make a last phone call to someone, out of my surprise that person picked up the phone . and then we talked for like more than half an hour, we both understand what the other wanted to say or would like to hear, but neither one of us said it out first, or we refused the last opportunity which was given to us.
let it be ! Like what i said , "what will be will be "
" life is not a stage so don't need to wear your mask and perform to anyone. be yourself and do whatever you want. etc etc " I still remember i told u all these things , actually did not know the reason why i told u so haizz
let just be friend for now, I don't want to think too much , for such a long time, I don't really put my trust in all kind of relationship ( of course there are some exceptions ). It's not that I'm not a committed type of person, it's because I haven't found the right person so that I could share everything with .
One of my friend ever told me the last time when i met her there, she said no matter how successful in life I could be, behind all that glory, I would still need a family so that I could know where to come back, where to spend my life with & thus, it would make my life complete.
I felt so touched when i heard what she told me, yes she got the point. But in order to make it happen, it requires tones of effort & overflowing love to maintain that love relationship. Am I ready to commit myself & be serious in a relationship ? The answer is I still Don't Know
You have your life over there, which I can't imagine how tough it could be and I also have my life over here, which you again also don't know what I might be through .
Each of us has our own things that we Have to do in life, everyday seems like a mundane routine, where we might repeat something unconsciously, yet we have to do it anyway . Isn't it boring ?
For you, you and you ( etc) I wish you all the best and do whatever you feel right in your life, because after all that is your life, which I could only be a viewer, a stranger, a supporter in a sense, a friend ( perhaps) and nothing else. vice versa, it goes the same thing for you.
Be my stranger, be my friend, be my love, be my family or be my nothing. It's up to you and to me to work it out !
Saturday, 8 October 2011
Hint
Be pessimistic, stay calm, and think about the problem one by one !
There is a hint of loneliness hidden in your bright face..
There is a hint of loneliness hidden in your bright face..
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Wednesday, 5 October 2011
Esa no es la forma, la forma de mi corazón !
" Sometimes the person who tried to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person ! "
" There's a point in life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you finally decide to quit, it's notGIVING UP. It's realizing you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring to your life. "
" Everything will be good as long as you do your best. Because if you do, there will be no regrets. "
Love to entertain people but seldom people can entertain me.
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Life still goes on no matter how many times you fail !
So .... ?
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