whenever I am feeling down, listening to some emotional songs would be the best deal for me.

a lot of unwanted/ unexpected things have been happening which made me feel so sian, stressed and depressed recently.

is it right to say that the peak of this year was over, and now it is the time to experience your own downturn :(

day by day, accumulated unwanted/ unhappy things keep occurring continuously, which I'm here striving hard to overcome it little by little till it really strains me out

I'm out of breadth, i'm out of energy - just to realize that I'm not that strong as I ever thought so.

Striving to do things little by little - even though when one unwanted thing happens, it could waste away all my little effort - then the question is what am I striving for ? the result would still be a "No" anyway.

Everyone knows that nobody could always maintain or stay forever at the peak, it would be a time for you to come down, so that others could shine. and yes, here I'm sobbing over my little failure/ downturn. How pathetic I am !

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" We have nothing to hold back there ."

Your words keep echoing in my mind. Yet you are right. I sincerely hope that your application goes well, so that you could get rid of this kind of life which you have been suffering for years. No one can guarantee a better one over there, but perhaps you deserve to have something new in your life. To refresh, to turn over a new leaf, to start all over again, to experience new things .

A bit puzzling when you said my life over here was fast, thus why I was like being flooded/ flown away with my hectic life. However I am not really sure what you said was right or not.

different countries, different place and thus, different life style, different pace. If I were you , I would have love your life style, instead of my own one then. I do feel that my life pace now is fast, but somehow it seems not fast enough to really flood me away to everything. I'm actively forcing myself to be busy, to be involved in so many things. The funny thing is that I even don't know the real reason why I do so. All I want is to make my life turn worse, depressing. and then when I achieve it, I could go crazy and feel depressed about it. How crazy I am .

haizz, enough for kidding and fooling around. back to serious, I want to be more busy, more "no-life" life .. for what - what for - I also do not know. Let's see and wait till my breaking down point. I doubt this day would be far away !

“当失落的时候，你不在身边。

为什么，生活好转后，你才出现，你认为你还值得待在我身边吗? "



我是真的好累了

Trying to learn how to love my life although it already sucks 

We - human being should really learn how to forgive and move on.

Of course, people makes mistakes in their entire life and of course, you and I are no exception. But come on, at the end of this life, what is the point of holding your anger, your selfish . What For ? when the time comes, we need to leave this life and go to another place, so what else can you bring along with ? Be selfish, be angry, be stupid, be dump for what .. 

I don't tell you to really forgive and forget for what had happened, whatever happened were already done, nothing can be undo, nothing can be changed. So at least learn to forgive and move on. No matter how you hold your anger in, no matter how you want to take revenge, it is only going to hurt everyone. You are unconsciously hurting yourself, your family members. 

It's just so sad to have to see these kind of things like this . It really sucks. 

I feel so sad for you, at this moment in your life, you are supposed to live care-free, without anything to worry much. Damn it, I feel sorry for you but sadly I couldn't do anything for you as well. 

Let's hope, pray and leave everything else to God's hands. If that is what He wants you to go through, then so be it.